Neglected

The garden is not getting the attention,
its been five long weeks since my operation
for Prostate Cancer, the body is healing
no big scars just little red marks on the body
but in side still a little sore at times
uncomfortable to sit down in the evenings.

The mind is restless not coping with the inactivity
of convalescing, and the lack of control over
life.  I need to be in the driving seat,
They changed my medication to ease things out
a bit, but now feeling worse.  
   

Bus Home

         Stu's View.

Photo taken as the bus started its descent from Barnet
on the journey home last-week after my consultation with my surgeon,
in the very far-distance it was possible just to make out a little of the london sky line
but never got a clear shot with the camera.      

Yellow Paint

Will it stop the unwanted buildup of negativity?

Going to give it a go  

Tuff Times

Really Missing the bike as a means of de-stressing, 

because of the surgery, not going to be able to ride for

another three weeks or so, may be more starting to get

fidgety, if the body stops the mind goes into overdrive

reworking old troubles, trying to read more 

but really need new glasses. 

      

   

Downloading Nirvana, by Glen Byford reviewed

The last ten days,from the beginning of my recovery from a operation

for Prostate Cancer, has been eased along by a book fashioned 

around people close to me, in-fact some very close may even be family,

if I don't sound sure it's because its a work of fiction but the inspiration

is so so familiar, it became like a sudoku puzzle for me,

filling in parts moving them around trying to get it all to add up,

Was it a game show I was on, or a refresher course to brush up my life

skills, I don't know but I feel all the better for reading it.

I shed a few tears and also roared with laughter, for me a moving book,

Well-done  Glen,   

Link....

 Glen Byford. promised an original novel of his own creation,  

Living in the Moment, an aspiration.

The Surgeon performed his part a week ago,

Now I start my recovery, I seem to have

recovery tasks in tandem now,

I remember when work was like this

moving from job to job, more than one a day,

and at weekends,  living in the moment,

no plans just the need to live,

maybe I need to get some of

that life back, the one without the need of a 

backup plan / safety-net, to much thinking

all the time, I don't think its going-to happen  

overnight but lets try, Just now and then.

             

      Freedom is around the next corner!   

We cleared the house of the unwanted junk

But my head still refuses to relinquish its store of tiresome demanding draining thoughts.